Friday, April 13, 2007
we got a white gold. =(
yes yes yes. there is much hype after it. meaning the syf. so should i give you a blow by blow account or do you just want me to get straight to the point? it might get lengthy you know. =P
so here i go:
early in the morning took a brand's essence to keep myself awake. it may not do the trick but you know, just tricking the mind is gd enuff for me. after all, we know it is just a mental thing. GET ME? =) then, i wore my fave watch and tied my hair nicely. SEE! it is such an important thing to me lah!
slept quite early the night before - around 11 cauz i was too nervous. =P prayed hard that we will do our very best on stage tmr. when i got to school, most band ppl had their uniforms with them in a bag and Jazz and SA were carrying BANANAS!!! =) funny. =P but i guess they wanted us to have healthy digestion or energy boost or SOMETHING.
so FF to class [no PE period as cher did not come] and we left earlier like around ten ten [no pun intended =] for the band room. got everything ready and were just checking our stuff, scores and stands and practising and waiting for the rest to arrive. so exciting! -.-"
then they briefed us blah blah and we practised and Fen passed me a spray that will help ease muscle aches. dun think it rlly helped - sorry Fen. =P ate some food and waited and waitED and WAITED and
WAITED and WAITED.after a while, mr foo came and went through a few times with us. by then, we had already changed into our uniforms and got many ppl's 'GD LUCK' wishings. =) thank you all; we rlly appreciated it. rlly tired cauz i was practising WHACKING the snare drum. i MEAN IT.
WHACKING.before i left, i still rmbred shuan squeezing my arm and saying, " OMG, Val! you have muscles!!" yes yes yes - thnk u very much for that comment. so, back to the topic, soon, we carried the instruments down to the foyer to wait for the bus. EITHER THAT or the bus was waiting for us. as we were carrying the instruments down, three indian males who obviously have a [mind my speech] f***ing problem and had to go and bang the toms. Fen told them not to touch it and i told them that we were going for a competition and i hope that they don't do anyth to it and i will rlly appreciate it. [dun rmb myself saying the last one tho. =P HECK.] and then one of them said, " i wish you all bad luck."
CHILDISH. ASS. MF. KNNBCCB. WU LIAO. NO LIFE.so after that, we got on the bus with the woodwinds and after checking the files and sticks and instruments for the umpteenth time - WE WERE OFF! alamak. it was just too fast to be true. got there around three plus. WAY EARLY. WAY TOOOOOOO EARLY. i think we were supposed to be there by maybe 3.30? but our turn was like 5? i had no idea whad was going on. quite excited by then, cauz we were alr at 'THE PLACE'. GOSH.
so Fen and i were kinda bored so we started looking at the other school bands' uniforms and trying to think what profession they could be in. EXAMPLES - marie stella [or is it maris stella? i dunnoe. =P] DEF pilots. all they needed were hats. =) some school was chinese restaurant waiters; one was korean waitresses/ school girls; another was english waiters; another another was air stewards and stewardesses and even AIR FORCE PERSONNEL!!!! thought this was a band competition? =)
got sian after a while. some couldn't fit into any kind of profession. HAIZ. whadever. then they said we could go into the tuning room. SHIT. palms got sweaty. Fen was like breathing in heavily and going 'ssssss' like some kind of deflated balloon. OMG. everybody kind of felt intense.
when we were in the tuning room, we got out our sticks to practice but couldn't start yet cauz if we did, they would start timing the ten mins. then mr foo said, okie, you can start now - everybody started to tune. fen i were like practising our strokes and all. SICK SICK SICK. when time was up, i felt like some deflated balloon TOO!
percussionists got to get ready with the band before us cauz we had to move instruments in. heard marie stella playing. not bad. [ SA said mr foo said that they were playing Night Safari. MY HEAD AH. like i dunnoe whad sunrise sounds like.] then bedoknorth went in and i got a shock of my life. NIGHT SAFARI TOO!!!!!! [yayaya - i thot mr foo said we were the only band playing that. MY HEAD AH. like i dunnoe how Night Safari sounds like? SHIT MAN.] so it just turned out worse. and they sounded good too. ah SHIT. by now, i couldn't help wringing my hands and tapping my feet and feeling nervous.
then it was our turn. as i'm typing, i can still feel the nervousness. GOSH it was REAL SHIT. so it was like huge moths and gigantic butterflies in my stomach and REAL SHIT; i can't even type properly now! =P i looked out at the audience and did not feel that nervous all of a sudden cauz i have been to this place [my third time there.] and i have practised both songs countless of times and how could i think abt it? ARGGH. that was when i was on stage and rlly - i rlly felt like i belonged there and i'm going to give my all and do my best and make this band proud and play like this is the last day of my life.
INDEED, it was. it was like a whirlwind thing or smtg; after around 20 mins, we were off stage and i was smiling. hands still shaking like GOD NOES WHAD. but i thot we did alright. in contrast, when QY came to tell me that maybe we had a chance of getting a 'G' [ i dun even want to say it too many times.], i told her that we would DEF get a silver. cauz if bedoknorth and that MS [cant spell it, for heaven's sake.] get 'G', we would DEF get silver. NO DOUBT.
FF - some majors asked us who wanted to watch the other remaining bands perform but can only allow 30 ppl; 10 for each level. i raised my hand and got chosen. but in the end, dunnoe whad the hell happened after waiting for almost 1/2 hr we had to go cauz the bus was coming? MY HEAD AH. went downstairs to the 'foyer' and there was no bus. zero. no news of any bus. MORE LIKE BUS 'COMING', not, 'ALREADY HERE'. so sianz abit and learn one new cheer [HAHA dina and sam. =P] and then we heard some male voice and everybody rushed up to the 2nd level where there was a speaker and they were GOING TO announce the results. [fast ah? hey, it took such a long time you noe!] majority of the ppl who crowded around the speaker were gessbanders. [SO IT CAME TRUE! ALL GESSBANDERS COULD STAY AND HEAR THE RESULTS!] =D
the guy was so 'lor sor' and thanked like dunnoe how many ppl and the audience cheered for every judge, but i guessed that the most OBVIOUS thing on their minds was 'HECK. GET OVER AND DONE WITH IT QUICK. WE ONLY WANT TO NOE THE RESULTS. WHO CARES ABT THE JUDGES?' and so after 5-10 mins, the moment of truth came. we were the 10th band to play so it was smtg like this: ping yi - silver [cheer like hell cauz according to Fen, they juz split up with springfield. EH, dun quite understand whad that means but HECK. NEXT.] silver silver and some bronze then silver summors.
then MS - gold. [ i was like SHIT. sure cant get it. half my hope KENNA chopped off.]
then bedoknorth - gold. [i was like DAMNIT, all hope chopped off and i started crying cauz rlly no use and NO DOUBT my intuition was right and so was Fen's.]
then GESSBand - silver. [almost typed gold. =P by then, i was rlly emo cauz couldn't stand it larh. holding on to the last bit of hope left no matter how miniscule it was. but too bad. GOD is always fair.]
so many ppl cried and so many disappointed hearts, to quote Macbeth [waahhhaa - i still can think abt lit at this time.] it 'is a sorry sight'.
heard some male gessbander said this: "the other bands get silver like that, they scream and cheer and yell like hell. gessband get silver like KENNA COP like that." [i thot that was humorous; the way the guy said it.] so i cried abit and Fen consoled me and said its okie and mdm siti said it's all right you have tried your best and dunt worry it is still okay and i cried more when they said that cauz that is usually how i am. then i dried my tears in the toilet but fifteen mins and the other HAPPY bands were cheering and i started to tear again and couldnt help it. mr ng said its okie you have tried your best and joanne was like patting my back and consoling me and it was just so solemn.
bus ride back was silent.
ppl were exhausted; most were sniffing; raymond cried [and i thot he got sore eyes or smtg.]; sky was dreary and outside - it was pouring. i supposed GOD was trying to fit the mood with us. who noes. and i was trying not to think of negative thoughts and i felt disappointed badly. maybe i rlly had my hopes 'TOO UP'. and so did everyone else. oh wells.
when we got into the band room around late six plus, Jazz tried to console us and so did the teachers and when Jazz said smtg abt the 'white gold', Fen sniggered and so did i cauz as we all noe - LAUGHTER is infectious. =) sombre mood wasn't there anymore. ate a banana cauz Jazz said we had to eat at least one. i actually wanted one more cauz that one was so little. BUT i'm nice. =P
Fen and i decided not to change out of our uniforms cauz we think that this might be the last time we ever wear this uniform. [GOSH, i'm tearing when i type this.] and it was just so sentimental and emo. we walked in the rain with our band uni. we walked in TBP in our band uni. we walked home in our band uni. THERE YOU GO. passion for band. Fen was like, "hey, got so many ppl see see look look." i was like, "i dun care."
there comes to a pt when you think u might be on the verge of a mental breakdown but we got to keep holding on. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. =D
but i felt that i had done my best and that although we can't help but feel disappointed, it goes to show one thing.
THE STANDARD HAS INDEED RISEN. NO DOUBT.at LJS, Fen and i started discussing which sec 1 for which instrument and she went, " so, him for bass drum ah?" and i just laughed cauz it was rlly hilarious and come to think of it, time has passed so fast that it rlly shocks me. Fen told me one more thing. she said that someone else from another band said that of us: " look at them. get silver but still look so 'bek chek'. [hokkien word for crestfallen.] i thot that was funny too. just goes to show how HIGH our expectations were.
and then i have to admit that i would never give anyth in the world to exchange for that experience. yes. i think we did alright. yes, i think we had given our all. [did u rlly?] yes, i am proud of gessband. [SHIT. tearing AGAIN.]
so i shall conclude that although there is so much hype, the main thing is to HECK CARE whadever and make sure the next time 2009 SYF, we are going to claim a gold, or even better > GWH. and maintain it. maintaining is important too. =) gd luck to the sec2's and sec 1's. DO US PROUD.
lastly,
THANK YOU MR FOO!!! =)gtg slp now cauz its 12 20 plus and tmr i gtg sch.
BB. v.
and PS: my longest blog post ever!!! GOSH - like writing an essay. sorry for the broken english, but when u are trying to get all your thoughts down at once, you cant help it. and i want to thank all the SRs for coming back to support us: Jn for braving the rain, Ds, Yi Wen, Dzaki, Desmond, Ian [also for helping Fen buy the wrist guard. it helped! =P], Cynthia, Xue Yan, Joanne, WeiLing and if i missed out any cauz i have a bad memory - sorry but thank you very much anyways. all support appreciated. EVEN INCLUDING GIAM AND GCH. see, i'm NICE. =) =P
and PSS: also to all others, WELL DONE GESSBAND AND ADD OIL. YOU WILL NEED IT. cherish this moment and thank you for reading. adieu.
10:05 PM
Thursday, April 05, 2007
i am freaking pissed and tired.
today i have been a bad girl. =(
today, i'm very tired and very stressed out.
but my brain cells have also fried.
si i cannot think of anything to write.
nor am i going to start another poem.
i am just going to crap and say:
WADDE HELL THEY ASK US TO MOVE THE DAMN INSTRUMENTS UP AND DOWN AND ALL OVER THE PLACE THEY THINK ITS VERY FUN IS IT LIKE SOME GAME AND THE MORE TIMES YOU MOVE IT UP AND DOWN YOU GET MORE POINTS DUN GIVE THIS KIND OF BULLSHIT AND MAKE UP YOUR MIND!
yes, i am very pissed.
BB. v.
10:16 PM